Genetics to knowledge: Aa rbrb Dd Mm (possibly carrying Siamese and Dumbo)

My world is ending... melodramatic? Not at all... Dawn was my soul mate. We were so very very close... and I had such a horrible feeling that she'd be gone when I got home. I kissed her goodbye when we went away and held her with all my might, somehow knowing it'd be the last time.

everything about dawn was perfect... she was such a gentle soul, and so beautiful... not a bad bone in her body, and always such fun - always ready to play. I just don' quite know how I'll cope without her gorgeous face at the bars, after cuddles and fuss... :*(

many people admired dawn, from her gorgeous looks to her shining temperament. she was funny, and sweet natured, and it nearly broke my heart to lend her out for a second litter - and it was such a shame it didn't work, because she was such a good mum. although... as if losing her wasn't bad enough, I found out today that one of her sons has just died too... and he's not quite a year old yet.

it does make me wonder if we are getting anywhere with the silvers. Karl assures me that we are, but they are such a heart wrenching variety. it's just almost continual heart ache breeding them... are we doing the right thing? we try so hard to make the right choices, try so hard to improve the health of these wonderful rats, but it just seems to be like walking through jelly

anyway - I shouldn't steal dawn's limelight... she was a perfect girl, and I think I'll miss her more than I can come to terms with right now...  it hasn't really sunk in yet. though, I did burst into tears when we got the phone call on the bus on the way back from Leeds last night... I couldn't really face not seeing her again, knowing she wouldn't be there to cuddle when we got back.

why dawn? why couldn't you wait until I'd had one last cuddle? :*(

run free precious darling, find your mum and dad, siblings and now your young son too...  he was too young.

i miss her so much...

Had a gorgeous litter of 10 in 2008.